Spring Break starts tomorrow. Goin' to Florida! I'm not gonna lie...I am excited, but dont want to leave Jenna and Rachel...but shitttt...its going to be crazy down there. I leave my regaurds.

Coming back Wednesday night...will Topeka be ready?

Sooo...Its pretty late. Im pretty bored. And not tired...school tomorrow? Fuckin great, I'm sure.

Shits whack lately. But I dont really want to 'vent' to my fuckin online diary...because I am not that gay or emotionally unstable. Whatever, I'm just going to stick with what I always say....whatever happens, happens. Thats how it goes... I'm not going to change who I am to make anyone else happy, no matter how fucking stupid they act.

Anywho....

Im fucking bored and pissed off.

BASICS
Name: Mara
Birthday: April 4
Eye Color: green
Height: 5' 6''
Weight: 114
School: THS
Location: Topeka, Kansas


FAVORITES
Song: Better Togther- Jacky Johnson
Book: I dont know
CD: Not sure, Panic! at the Disco's new CD is great though
Color: who cares
Car: 2000 mustang GT
Celebrity: uhhh
Food: tacos, pizza
Piece of clothing: a good tank top or pair of jeans
Band: Panic! At the Disco, Jack Johnson, Ben Folds
Show: Dirty JObs with Mike Rowe, most shows on TLC, cooking shoes ( Emril Live!)
Flavor: shit
Channel: probably, HGTV, TLC,
Person: hahah Im not going to say.
Sport: volleyball, basketball

THIS OR THAT
Pizza or spaghetti? Pizza
Basketball or football? baseketball
Computer or TV? computer
Girl or Guy? gay
Baby or adult? Adult
People or animals? animal
70s or 80s? gay
Power Rangers or Ninja Turtles? stuuupid
Funny or gross? Gross is funny
Family Guy or Real World? Real World

CURRENTLY
What are you wearing? AE Jeans, a long red shirt
What are you doing? filling this out.
What are you thinking? about a bitch
How are you feeling? pissed as fuck
Are you upset? yes
Is anything bothering you? yes, a fucking lying bitch.
Are you on other websites? no.

Are you talking to anyone on AIM or MSN? aim
Are you bored? no.

Are you crying? No
Are you listening to music? afro man!
Are you watching TV or a movie? no
Do you feel clean? not really
Do you want to be somewhere else? In lawrence or KC shopping, yes.
Is anyone watching you take this survey? No
What time is it?  9:07
What day of the week is it? monday
Are you annoyed with anyone? yesssssssssss

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
Watched TV? about an hour ago
Cried? to be honest, i really dont cry very much, but I did cry today.
Went on vacation? uhhh i dont know
Got in a fight? an arguement? Saturdaynight
Took a shower? this morning
Got a haircut? last Saturday
Felt lonely? I dont know. I always feel lonely when Im alone.
Felt dirty? yesterday
Wanted to slap someone? right now.
Gotten in big trouble? this summer when ross and I had a party
Gotten an A on something? I dont know. Well today, some geometry test. 100 bitch
Gotten a bad grade? fucking english essay. She hates me or?
Listened to music? Now--- benny folds
Watched a movie? the notebook yesterday, theres something about mary tonight
Talked to a friend? like 1 minute ago
Went to school? today
Hung out with family? I dont know, at dinner iguess.

DO YOU
Like to be active? sure
Get online every night? most of the time unless my brothers are one.
Think you are pretty? yes
Play any sports? yeah
Watch TV a lot? Yes
Usually do your homework? yep
Get upset when you get anything lower than a A on a test? yep
Wish you could fly? fa sho
Want to live in another country? France sort of
Think that most people like you? No, alot of people are really judgemental.
Like the summertime? sooooo much
Know how to surf? never tried

FAMILY
How many siblings do you have? 3
Are you the youngest? neeeope
Do you get along with your family? sort of. i would say we are close but we have bad arguements often
Do you hang out with your family a lot? no not really.
Do you wish you had a twin sister/brother? I guess.

HAVE YOU EVER
Wanted to kill yourself? thats so stupid. Maybe I make jokes about it everyonce in awhile, but thats because the people who are actually serious about it are so pathetic.
Cussed? everyone always writes Fuck no. Im Just going to say yes.
Been embarassed and people still make fun of you for it? I dont really get embarassed that easy but there are some things....
Been dumped? Kind of
Dumped someone? thats usually the case.
Had sex? no
Thought that everyone hated you? not everyone.
Hurt someone close to you? yes
Talked to someone on the phone for more than 3 hours? yep


My Room
1. Is your room comfortable? I guess
2. What color are your walls? My walls are like Plum, my ceiling is light green and the window trim is cream. real classy.
3. Is your room downstairs? not in the basement, no.  I wish it was though.
4. What part of the house is your room on? what did i just say asshole?
5. How many windows do you have in your room? 5
6. How big are the windows? Im not going to go measure.
7. Do you have screens in your windows? Yehah
8. How many doors lead to your room? 1
9. Do you have your own bathroom for your room? no, not anymore.
10. Do you have a walk-in closet? yes.
11. Are there any posters on your wall? no, none.
16. Do you have high ceilings? no
17. Do you have a mirror in your room? Yes
19. How big is your bed? queen

20. What is your bed's design? uhhh
21. How many people do you think have slept in it? hmm...ever? ( Im talking about overnights and such....) probably...20+
22. Do you think it is comfortable? chhh yeah, its a water bed.
23. What color is your carpet? I have wood floor with a cream carpet
24. How often do you clean your room? I try to always keep it clean, but if its messy I will usually freak out and clean it
25. Do you have a ceiling fan? no
26. Do you have an alarm clock? i use my cell phone
27. Is there food in your room? No
28. Do you have a TV in your room? Yes
29. Do you have a phone in your room? no, i barely ever use the house phone
30. Do you usually close your doors when you are in your room? Yes
31. Is there a computer in your room? no
32. Is most of your time spent in your room? yes, or on the computer.

sooooooo that was a total waste of my time.

Hm, I was looking at xangas, and I decided I should sort of recap 2005 on here.

New Years 2005- I went over to Bobby Ross' house and hung out with all the freshman. It was a good time, more or less.

January 2nd 2005- First time I ever got drunk. I remember saying that there was no way that I could ever do that on a normal basis. Hahahha

Febuary 2005- I started talking to Rachel and Ashley and becoming friends with them

Early March 2005- Ashley and Rachel's birthday party....it was a good time, but some big mistakes were made. At least I learned from them, right?

Spring break 05- What a great week!!! I remember I spent 4 nights at ashley's, 2 at Olivias, and like 4 at Cara's. We got caught by Cara's mom and she called all of our parents the next day.

April 2005- My birthday! I got a cell phone! haha where would I be now without one? Me and Jenna started to become better friends

May 2005- 125th and Wanamaker! yessssssssssssssssssssss good times. Started to get better friends with morgan

June 2005- Volleyball camp, alot of just hanging around.

July 2005- By FAR, the best month of 2005. Hung out with Pete, Oz, Tom, Jeff, Rich, Rachel, Ashley, and Morgan about every night. Olivia left for Language camp, Jenna left for Tennesee. The fiesta....the box on fire...This month is pretty much the time when me, morgan, ashley, rachel, and jenna all became best friends.

August 2005- CRAZY WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!! parties at my house...getting grounded...olivia came home, school started.

September 2005- partying at Benfer's house...all that FTC shit got started...drumline stuff going on

October 2005- hmm.... Ashley's mom wasnt home...partied there...

November 2005- going to KU to party, getting sick. Drumline pretty much over.

December 2005- Semi formal, strapp dance...fun shit. Basketball games start... Friends getting busted by the police and being grounded.

New years 2006- Spent with Jenna, Rachel, and Ashley. Going to a Washburn Rural party.

MYYYYY my how things have changed!!

New Years 2005 I said I hung out with all the kids in my class. Now, basically none of them talk to me or my friends ( god knows why) and think we're the devil, even though they do the same shit as us.

First time  i got drunk was in January...I have definately drank since then, alot. things change.

2005 was a good year. I have definately come to grips with myself and whatnot, and realized that people are going to hate no matter what, and I dont give a flying fuck. Me, Rachel, Jenna, Ashley, and Morgan are all best friends and I am happy with life.

The phrase I choose to sum up 2005 is----" Don't let the hatas stop you from doin yo thang!"...and I won't....bitcheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees!

Life is good! It's gone from really gay and shitty to really good in like 3 weeks. I'm glad things are starting to get normal agian.

The STRAPP dance was Friday--- it was crrrrrrunk! Semi-formal is next Saturday, and I am tres excited for that.

bye!